August 29, 2004
2 deep and 1 shallow.Met bionic annie and pervert snow for dinner yesterday. Had a really engaging conversation with my fave iced passion at CC, Holland V after that. We covered much ground.
1. PM Lee. Just so whoever's sitting beside our table may be impressed that some youngsters in Singapore actually follow the news and hey, I can name quite a number of ministers! And their portfolio! Wow!
Bush-Clinton-Bush, Lee-Goh-Lee. And yes, one of the verses in our pledge goes 'To build a democratic society, blahblah...' It's ok. Any Tom, Dick or Harry (hmm.... isn't this MM Lee's English name?) would be fine, just as long as the performance is more than an amusing political game. So, shall wait to, hopefully, applaud. As for Snow's humble opinion that foreign talents are screwing us all the way from top to bottom, I gotta agree it's blowing out of proportion. Pun intended. It's a sync or sink situation. But we can still hope.
2. Religion. We concluded this topic rather quickly, despite it being part of our agenda for meeting up. Readers who might be offended, pls do yourself the favour by skipping to the next point in list.
We are agreed on the possibility that Jesus, Shakyamuni, Mohammed, the many saints and deities are all playing dai-dee and chess, having a cuppa, up there while their followers down here going at each other's throats. And we agreed that churches are becoming more social than spiritual, and some are just venues for funtastic drama (pls refer bionicgirl's blog), like if you really need to save that $8.50 on weekends. Religion is the opium of the masses (thanks Marx!), but to smoke opium is a personal choice, and we respect that. But we do not condone that any one brand is more superior to another. And stop assuming that by dragging your friends (worse, gf or bf) to the opium house with you, you are saving their pathetic lives.
3. Responsibility. Grossly misused term, thought Annie.
We agreed that a sense of responsibility is severely lacking in our society today. Not talking about responsibility towards others (whose other name is obligation), but responsibility for yourself, to acknowledge yourself, to be answerable for your own actions, words and behaviour, to be able to live with the mess you created yourself. (This ties in to religion as an excuse for your lousy behaviour, like instead of saying 'I fucked it up myself', we say 'so-n-so put me through this test and I pray that he will help me clean up this mess'.) All this talk about being socially responsible and responsible towards your family and partners when we shield responsibilty for ourselves. Really meaningless.
4. Comfort zone.
All guilty, some more than others. First we let our papers and ideals to restrict ourselves, when they are actually the things to set us free, give us more choices in life. Then, we set up our own comfort zone and try to tell ourselves (and anyone who would listen) that it's not that bad. And before we know it, 30 years have passed and we still haven't made that career change.
5. A close shave with philosophy.
Snow suggested the possibility that someone bigger than life is overlooking all of us here. Someone called Morpheus. hee.. That our being here is not the result of a big bang, that life is not coincidental. My suggestion was that maybe life is just a random collection of atoms. And the iced mocha vanilla he drank yesterday is really just the product of a few random collisions of atoms, and the fork is not there. So, what we wanna know is what is there to life if it's just a pretty ugly accident?
6. This is Home, truly.
We still love being here. Still wanna come back here, even if we can choose to stay away for good. This is where our friends and family are, where we can share nasi briyani, indian rojak, fish and chips and char kway teow on the same table. This is where I would start from, if one day, I have the means to make any big changes.
7. The one.
Is not Neo. My morbid suggestion was that, if you really want to believe someone is The ONE in your life, you should end your life asap, before any doubts come into the picture. No point waiting until you start asking the 'What if's, then go through divorce. It's not that we don't believe in the other person, it's that we don't believe in ourselves. We ought to believe we are already at our sexiest and most attractive now. Bottom line? We all try to keep finding The ONE cos we don't believe we can commit. Sad.
8. Academia bottlenecks
Is there nothing new we can say in our dissertations, other than building on what has already been said by the classical thinkers? Keep thinking about this.
9. Knowing what you don't want.
Most of us don't know what we want in a career, a relationship, a life. But we usually know what we don't want. We agreed that that's a good start already. Don't be too harsh on yourself. You can't know exactly what you want all the time. 'Cos that will make life too boring and too predictable. Sometimes, you just know what you don't want, stay away from those and try all others that you might want. In the end, elimination method still works. Just don't get into the comfort zone too much, enjoy the process and erm, try to get some fertilizer out of every shit.
Amazing how we covered this much ground. Considering the crowd consisted of shallow pervert snow. I think Snow has found his calling in life - piss taking from Annie and me. Admit it, pervert. You love us.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:03
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Had ended.Not thinking of someone (or not dreaming of someone) is no proof of having gotten over him. To think of someone, or dream of him, and feeling at peace with yourself, knowing that even the end has ended, and no longer feeling anything for him is, I find, a better evidence of moving onto a life without him.
I've answered for a decision I've made, and paid for a decision that he made. Living with it. No need to turn to God.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:54
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August 26, 2004
EquippedOne of the things I love about my job is 'Thursdays are learning days'. Also cos Thursday signifies T.G.I.F the next day.
Today, I had staff training in occupational therapy (OT). Basically, we learnt about the different levels of arousal level in our children and how to modulate them so as to achieve the desired level for them to function and learn best. We learnt about sensory modulation and sensory integration.
I realised that a lot of the games I used to play when I was primary-schooling served so much more purpose than I thought. My sisters, cousins and I used to play this game called 'Crocodile'. It goes this way... one person, sometimes two, will 'pasang' and be the crocodile under the table tennis table (there are still a few that survived all the HDB upgrading in some older housing estates) while the rest (usually 3 or 4 of us) will be the preys standing on top of the table tennis table. The crocodile will try to reach out from the sides of the table and touch any of the preys' leg and that means the prey will be 'dead'. The crocodile can choose anytime to 'attack' and the preys will just have to be alert at all time. There will, therefore, be a lot of pushing, shouting and jumping on the table as the preys try to escape the fatal touch of the crocodile.
Just a game as simple as the above helps in building up a lot of senses, like the proprioceptive (hoho, new word i learnt) sense - a sense of muscles and muscular movements.
Many of the action songs I've learnt in primary school actually were more meaningful than just fun. They involve a lot of both gross and fine motor skills training and pre-writing exercise for the wrists and fingers and it helps to modulate the senses of a child so that he/she is made more aware and can better integrate the different information he is receiving from each of his senses.
OT is such fun, really! We went to the OT room to have a go at the tools used to modulate the students. It was really fun. The slide, 'jetty jump', 'rubber trampoline', yoga ball, log swing, wheel swing, 'rocky cushions', etc. Some made me feel relaxed while others made me feel more anxious and tensed. With an understanding of how these tools work differently for different people, we can better make use of OT as a way to help our kids with their sensory and emotional issues.
Will be resuming the Maths Seminar next Thursday. Basically, learning the curriculum goals and various pedagogy and ways of teaching Maths to children. Contrary to what most of us thought initially, there's a lot lot lot to learn about and from teaching Maths to children. Gotta admit, Maths makes so much more sense and fun than it used to be.
I love being student-teacher. =)
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:06
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August 25, 2004
I can hear. From my speakers already. Don't ask me what or how it happened. Apparently, my sis assured me that there was no problem when she used it this afternoon and she's right. I feel bullied, by my com.xxx
Popped by Henry's blog (i.e. Been Everywhere But Here). I really quite enjoy reading his blog every once in awhile. I don't know him personally but this man writes good stuff. And, I get the feeling of ... hmm... like the feeling one would get when sitting at a quiet beach on a semi-sunny+cloudy day, looking out at a rather calm sea. Nice.
Not forgetting the fact that there's often interesting stuff I can plagiarise from his blog. Like this one here...
The elegance of regret is experience.
But elegance is something that we learn to recognise and appreciate over time. The first glance is always quite clumsy.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:26
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August 24, 2004
National Day Rally 2004I didn't watch it on TV. Not until the last 20 minutes or so. But, I heard about it all right. From radio, and newspaper and my Dad. And I read about it from Meisen's blog.
Haven't given deep thought about it. Just a few things that I cast some braincells to work on:
1. (my pet topic, said Meisen) Education. Specifically, Chinese language education.
The new emphasis would be on speaking and reading the language, not so much on writing. I still think that it's sad that students now can't cope with writing the language for the same reason why I feel Chinese is a lovely language - the (too many) strokes. The intriguing thing about the language is how the characters are pictograms and how they evolved and changed their form over the many many many years.
But, I guess you can't want the best of all worlds. If our students cannot cope with writing, then at least let them learn to recognise, read and speak the language properly. Let them not hate the other aspects of using a language just cos they have difficulty writing it.
However, please do not keep generating the idea that we ought to learn Chinese merely for the sake of expanding our entrepreneurship (or whatever we have of it) up north. That's a really effective but pathetic form of encouragement.
2. Education. Again.
The fleet of teachers to be increased by nearly 3000 in the next few (6??) years. Very well. More teachers, less students per class, lower teacher-student ratio, better teaching. Or not. I heard enough stories to gather that a lot of teachers teaching in mainstream schools slowly lose their faith and motivation in their once-thought-to-be-noble job 'cos the workload and the pressure of good grades is overwhelming. But I know there are still some who are trying hard to focus on the big picture - the real influence a teacher has on shaping our future - and that's encouraging.
On the other hand, the number of 'temporary teachers' have been increasing the past few years. I'm talking about people, who did not even dream of being a teacher, signing up for teaching simply cos they couldn't find a job in the 2 months after graduating and hence, grabbed at the rather big piece of monetary bait that MOE offers. The mentality is 'Just do it temporarily, maybe I will like it. If not, at least until I find a better job.' You put these 'temporary teachers' into schools, whose lives will their non-commitant mentality screw up?
So, it's really not about the quantity, the cornerstones of quality education lie in devoted quality teachers and an inclusive and supportive structural system.
3. If you want to speak at the speaker's corner, you speak. No need to register anymore. Sounds more reasonable. However, it doesn't matter anymore. Who really bothers now? Good try though.
4. Longer working hours for jobs such as cleaners. So that they can earn more (on a more skeptical note, it's also in the interests of the State to keep its people occupied).
5. Increased maternity leave.
Well, Sharifah just shared with me her opinion about this last week. Her view is, why make such a big fuss over how much maternity leave a mother gets? It will never be enough, anyway. A mother is a mother for a lifetime, not for the 3 months in a year. True. But, I still like the idea that you get paid for as many months as possible for staying home and being an extra bother (aside from your child) to your parents or in-laws. *tsk! That's not nice. Ok, they call it confinement. =P
6. Lower maid's levy for families with children younger than 12 years old.
This is problematic. Is he trying to say that families with older children can better afford domestic help? In fact, expenses tend to go up as the child grows older. Example, all secondary school children possess a handphone vs. some primary school children possess a handphone. And we all know who pays for their bills. You wanna help, help them all.
And, I was half-hoping he would talk a bit about better treatment for domestic helpers since he's on that topic. But, nay.
That's about it for now. The talk has been talked. And in my opinion, the talk had too many changes and a few rather significant changes. Encouraging, definitely. But, can the government, and the people walk the walk?
Hold your breath.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:38
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This much (little) I've learntLook, you can call me a techno-imbecile. There are days when I simply don't agree with my computer, specifically for today, my speakers and keyboard.
One of Janet's friends has very thoughtfully bought her a new HP keyboard after her brief mention that the 'd' key in our old keyboard wasn't working well. So, now, I have a new keyboard to type with and it feels great, cos it's soft to the touch and so much quieter than my old one.
What I did was, I changed the old one to a new one, put in all the wires nicely. Period. And hey presto! It's working!
2 hours earlier, Meisen sent me a win media file. Hey presto! Guess what! The speakers didn't work though it's on and trust me, everything else like audio function and what not is on and fine (this much I know, ok!). So, number one suspect is the keyboard, instead of the speakers. I checked, went to control panel and checked on the hardware n devices for my com (this much I know too). Found out that on the list, my keyboard is still the old one, and not this nice sleek new one.
Now, I bloody don't know if that's the reason why my speakers are dumb for today. But, I know I ought to install a driver or I dunno what you call that for my new keyboard. So, I went to check out HP website to download the whatever-it-is. And, little surprise, I couldn't find what I was looking for. Simply cos I don't bloody know the model number of the bundle that my keyboard is supposed to be with (but my guess was Compaq Presario). Hell, I keyed in the keyboard number and the results returned were like Greek, none seems to be the one I want.
I think what I will do is to call HP tomorrow, IF I remember. Whatever it is, I'm really irritated now. And it has been awhile since I got sooo F***ing irritated by my computer. I'm trying to see it as a funny thing now... while taking in deep breaths.
Anyone of you out here knows what I'm talking about and knows how to help, pls drop me a comment. You can laugh at me for the next 2 months but I badly want to hear sounds from my speakers asap.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:21
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August 21, 2004
ICQ Screw-upsI haven't been using ICQ for a long time, for many good reasons. However, I just logged on to check if there's any belated messages for me. There were a few. But, there's this one that was an authorisation request. From the most unlikely person. I wonder why he bothered, though I still authorised it. Since I don't use it a lot anymore anyway.
Then, I realised that it could have been the other way round! It could have been a request sent from me to him! And I clicked without taking a close look. That would be dreadful! So I went to check the history and it seems like there was a screw-up. Congratulations.
I have yet to and do not see the point of deleting him from my ICQ list. But, to ask for an authorisation? That's totally out of point.
Anyway, for those of you who started to wonder about my absence from ICQ and haven't seen me in MSN, don't think too much about it. It's you I'm avoiding.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:28
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Miss Fat FrogI'm not Miss FF, I miss FF. The default place to be at on Saturday nights. Just to chill and hang out with Bblics, and sometimes Apple and Kyn. Chatting, gossiping only during the 20 minutes interval when Nuris and Darren take their break. Just keeping quiet, stoning, entertaining some amusing or depressive thoughts when one starts singing and the other starts strumming his guitar. Occasionally, bumping into Joe or Jeremy. Exchanging big hugs with Joe, who's always a reason to believe that life can be very simple and positive when you enjoy the things you do but also enjoy the time when you are not doing them.
Felt extreme loneliness once, there. Had a sudden desperation for Bblics to reach in the next second. Cried rather uncontrollably. Made a few heads turn with my quiet shouts of 'What the fuck?' Wet Bblics's shoulder with my helpless crying. Followed by senseless laughing. I was really losing it on that one occasion.
Got paid a rare compliment regarding my handwriting from Nuris.
Out of reach, there's a life out there for me.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:09
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5 yearsIs the time a kid goes from nursery to Primary 3. I'm talking about the little boy I helped to take care of when I was volunteering at a child care centre near my house before I went to uni. I remember sitting beside him till he drifted off to sleep during the afternoon nap time. He looked so much like the younger brother of my xbf then. Therefore, I felt affinity with him.
Yesterday evening, he was in my house. As my new tutee. I'm giving him tuition for Chinese. He lives two blocks away from me and I often bump into his Mum, who unexpectedly recognises me since the childcare days. So, after some impromptu little chats with his Mum, I became his Chinese tutor.
I took an almost instant liking to my new tutee. At the minimum, he's very fluent in spoken Chinese and is comfortable with the use of the language - something that is becoming very uncommon in kids these days. That's extremely important in teaching languages. You got to have a keen interest and not phobia.
Maybe sacrificing Friday evenings chilling out with friends for this isn't such a lousy trade-off, after all.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:51
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Give me a reason to crySaw bit of the Olympics on TV Mobile. It was the high jump event. Don't know if I'm getting more emotional as I grow older or have I just been suppressing some emotions for too long. I felt extremely touched by how the participants so so concentrated on their event and upon achieving a new record or a new score, the 'YES~!!!!!!' expression on their perspiration-drenched face... it says it all, about pursuing a passion in life, about personal achievement.
I got so moved I almost teared. And I think it sounds ridiculous, even though I'm admitting it here. That moment of happiness, satisfaction. That split inspiring moment. The right reason to cry.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:40
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August 16, 2004
Met Snow for dinner today. Who gave me a check for 30K pounds. Which I'd drop into the quickcheck deposit box of Bank of Faggots soon, as soon as he gives me the address of the bank. Thanks, Mate! Next time, just give me cash. 3 pieces of 10K nominations would be fine. Finally, you can see your own faggot face on paper tender as your arse.xxx
A figment of the imagination
Phase one is that loving someone based on just 'a feeling' is unreliable. Qualities are definitely more intrinsic and more valuable.
Phase two is that you don't love someone just 'cos he/she is nice to you. That's not love, that's self-gratification. Someone else will always be 'nicer' to you after you took him/her for granted.
Phase three is that it makes you feel like manure not even fit to be fertilisers when the one you love refers to you as a mistake that he/she wouldn't want to repeat.
Phase four is...
The end will, hopefully, be an affirmation that the one you loved is the one mistake that you never want to repeat too. How warm is cow's manure?
Snow> Maybe it's not a feeling that I fell in love with, neither his qualities. I fell in love with my image of what he was and what he could be. Does that sound worse? I fell in love with a figment of my imagination.
Reality welcomed me with both hands and feet, that's when I stopped imagining.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:31
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August 15, 2004
"The Village"Went to watch it just now. By myself. Cos my darling didn't seem interested anymore, which is a big change from last Sunday night. And of course, her colleague bought a movie ticket for her when she in fact planned to go home and sleep.
And, she's supposed to come join me at Sentosa today. But, she went to some christian show at suntec, (no) courtesy of her colleagues. So, she will miss all the aching I will experience when I wake up later.
Hey, dar, if you happen to read this, tell your colleagues hands off you! I'm getting jealous ok! no kidding man.
Oh, the movie. I liked it. It was not as good as I hoped it would be. But, I liked the idea. And I liked Sigourney Weaver. Just that the plot's a bit thin, under-developed. And I feel some characters were like, u know, under-developed too. pretty shallow in that account. Still, as a thriller, it succeeded tremendously. I was holding on to my bag from the first third to end of the show, and I jumped up 3 times - didn't even jump up that many times during Sixth Sense, though Sixth Sense definitely had a better twist n 'thicker' plot than this.
p.s. Food court at Cineleisure is open. Sucks big time. A true disappointment. It's shrunk in size. And they left out all the hollywood stars name n pictures so that now it looks like all other food courts and it's soooo damn boring. And Cafe Cartel is opening a branch there soon. And it's like.. sigh... Thank Goodness there's the new coffee club in front of california fitness to make up for it. and it's 24 hours! means, antidote for my mood swings 24 hours. nice.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 02:20
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My new mood swingspessimistic. angsty. cynical.
reverse chronological order.
Ezo. Meisen. Eug.
ok. I admit to all three.
But nothing that can't be lessened or made to feel better with some time alone with just my Iced Passion Tea (coffee club).
Did that last Tuesday. Should make it like a monthly routine kinda thing. Just in case I get lost in this cranky reality. Save me, Iced Passion.
Thanks, faggot. For calling. Remember the check book on Monday. You promised 10K.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 02:05
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"ouch, but i love it"I went to Sentosa today. Played frisbee. Had ice-cream. Played frisbee again.
I know, for sure, I'd wake up with aching thighs, calves, right up till my toes (no kidding, kinda strained them while running on sand, reaching for that frisbee). But I lurve it man. Makes me feel good about my body.
More frisbee soon? yeah~
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:56
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August 08, 2004
I've been meaning to do the following but I either feel too inadequate (still am) or too lazy (or both) to do it earlier than now. Given the perks of having a super early dismissal time on Friday (finished work at 10am) and an extra school holiday on Tuesday, it's time I write a bit of my experience in my 2+ months old job. Being no real expert in this area, I will share just what I know and experienced, which is probably just a little bit more than what you know about ASD. Goes...one... On Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
Autism is a brain disorder that typically affects a person's ability to communicate, form relationships with others and respond appropriately to the environment. It is a spectrum disorder which means there is a range of symptoms and severity of an autistic child (mild to very severe). Autism cannot be outgrown, i.e. you don't grow out of it, neither can it be cured simply 'cos it's not a disease. But, the symptoms may lessen as the child develops and receives correct treatment (in the broadest definition of the word). Autism is NOT contagious.
ASD children look the same as all other kids. Typically, you can't tell an ASD child apart from a non-ASD kid until you observe their behaviour and social/communication skills. There are MANY hidden talents and genuises among ASD children.
Characteristics of autism include: resistance to changes, difficulty in expressing verbally, laughing/crying as signs of distress which are not apparent to others, aloofness, throwing tantrums, no real fears or sense of danger, noticeable physical over-activity or under-activity, little or no eye contact, attention deficit, excessively polite or formal, doesn't respond or over responding to verbal stimuli, various sensory issues, aggressiveness, etc.
Remember, some of these behaviour are actually common to all children. Therefore, a professional assessment ought be conducted before a child is deemed to be autistic. My experience tells me that non-response to verbal utterances, aloofness, aggressiveness and odd (and continuous) laughing or crying with no real apparent reason are better tell-tale signs.
two... Teaching ASD Kids
The emphasis is on visual aids. ASD kids do not learn well through verbal means - which is why they suffer when put into mainstream schools where lessons depend a lot on verbal teaching and instructions. The younger kids may need a lot of pictorial support to understand what is expected of them, while written words may work well enough for the older ones.
Structures give ASD children security and therefore, enable them to function well enough to cope with other demands made on them. Things like time-schedules, fixed routines, obvious boundary markers and structures, clear and short instructions help them to settle down better.
My experience is that gestures and visual aids work much better for both the children and the teachers than verbal prompts. I started out by having to repeat verbally every 10minutes for Kid A to sit properly during assembly and stand straight during the singing of the school song. Now, I tap his arm and point to the place he's supposed to sit and he does exactly that and stays that way. And when flashed a card with 'Stand Nice' written on it, he complies almost immediately.
Also, they can be very rigid and get immensely upset when there is an unexpected change in routine or little things like shifting their bag from the position when they put it. And when these kids get upset, suffice to say that you will be in for a 'surprise'. Kid B got very upset when I accidentally kicked and moved his school bag from where he put it. He shouted at me, 'Look what you've done!!!', jumped up from his seat, walked to re-position his bag. Knowing the grave mistake I've committed, I had to say, 'Sorry. I'm sorry. Yes, I shouldn't have moved your bag.' And if Kid B isn't contented with that, he would walk to me and give me a little punch on my arm. All the time, feeling completely justified for his actions.
three... Amazing Discoveries from My Experience (thus far)
These children are wayyyyyy more smarter than you can possibly imagine. The reasoning is very simple. They have difficulties expressing their needs and feelings but that doesn't mean they don't understand your needs and feelings (and your expectations and demands on them) and most importantly, (I think) they know you don't know what they are thinking. Result? They can be wonderful manipulators.
During my first few weeks of teaching, I've been bullied, abused and 'voluntarily molested' by some of the kids. Being new to them, I've had no idea where their ability can reach and how far is too far for them to try. Mind you, they knew I'm new and they knew I didn't know them enough. The sensible thing for them to do is to test my limit and test my response to their actions.
I still get hit by my own students. haha... But, to be in this position means you stop taking things at face value; be literal in saying what you want, and not be literal in understanding what they do to you. If they hit you, the best response is not to react negatively. Either ignore it or ask what is wrong and then explain to them the appropriate means to get what they want. However, you can do this again and again and again and they may not remember still. But, this is a job in which you believe you can make the difference, no matter how small. When you cease to, you no longer fit in.
I definitely have more interesting tales and trying moments at work than these. Till the next super long weekend, maybe! ^_^
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:39
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When one plus one is not equal to two,How to reconcile the time when you know for sure one plus one is equal to two and the time when you know one plus one is not just equal to two and may never be equal to two? This grey area is killing me...
xxx
Your bark is music to my ear
Maybe a dog would be a good choice. How about a golden retriever? Or even a pink poodle? Anything but a shih tzu. My experience with 3 shih tzu has not been encouraging at all.
xxx
Starry starry night
Therefore, even if the display is from Hong Kong and then USA and then the parade itself, stars still charm like nothing else injected up into the sky can.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:21
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August 04, 2004
Say, you love me.Went to take a look at the photos Apple took during her short (almost foregone) trip in Perth. She looks lovely. I think it's love, re-ignited. Together with the beautiful scenery, Shaun and Apple looks perfect together. Maybe they are perfect together. Maybe it's not too far-fetched to, as per her request, give a twin-door metal digital fridge for their wedding gift after all.
Two more steps, two more words. And I'm yours for life.
Tough luck, mate.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 21:22
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August 01, 2004
'It's Death'D came over my place just now to pick up something from janet, who was actually chatting on the phone in her room though she's supposed to be asleep (and therefore, had to get her sister i.e. me to pass the things to D instead of doing it herself). *so, D, you see... she's soooo NOT sick*
And D commented that my blog sounds a bit weird and incomprehensible these days, quoting the mayonnaise entry. Boys and girls, the mayonnaise entry was meant for FVB - one of my darlings. And the welcome one was meant for Snow aka the pervert or the shameless.
And D asked if I've read the other Sandman comic he lent me cos he wanted to find out which one I like better. I haven't. hee... And Meisen, the one I read is Death - The Time of Your life 1-3. And the one that's still collecting dust (opps, sorry, D) on my desk is Death - The high cost of living.
It's really all about Death. Nasty things start with D... Death, Depression, Derange, Decomposition, Dilemma, Des.... hahahha... =P
*But D is an exception. hehe
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:33
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Thanks Ezo~! Didn't catch u at the bursary ceremony today. Will be hearing from me soon oki! YG going to beach! =)
You are the pilot.
Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:19
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Love & dating...19Actually, love and dating haven't been on my mind for some time. It's in the folder of 'Unused Icons' located somewhere in my brain. But, I just got the following from the book that i'm reading now.
'Loving someone means helping them, it doesn't mean just... dumping your excess emotion into their lap. Your kind of love, it's a self-gratification. ' (A Touch of Love by Jonathan Coe)
Think about this, readers and friends. And perhaps, learn to love better.